Let's be honest...

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So here it is... Sunday. Today was my first weigh in and I have been sitting on the number (literally and figuratively) all day. I was actually a little surprised by it because I thought it was going to be much higher. I even considered getting a different scale! But I figure this is a good starting point and this is where I am. I don't tell many people my weight (for obvious reasons), but I think it is crucial to my journey and my success to be honest and throw it out there! So here we go!

My starting weight is 219 pounds. This is not the biggest I've been so I guess I can't be too unhappy with this number :) My goal weight is 145 pounds. I've got a ways to go...

So now it's time to be honest and talk about some goals. Why do I want to lose weight? What am I working for? What is the bigger picture? Yes, its about being healthy, but also its about more deeper things... I already wrote that I am going to be in my sister's wedding. A couple years back I was in my dad and step mom's wedding and I got to walk my dad down the aisle (so fun!), but when I look at the pictures from that day, instead of remembering what a wonderful time it was, all I see is FAT Michelle. I don't want a repeat of that. I want to look at pictures from Melissa's wedding and remember the joy of the event... that we all looked our best... that I'm not the one standing out because of my weight, that the beautiful bride is standing out (as much as she doesn't want to, haha). I'm just being honest here.

My goals also go deeper than this.... I think about my future and the future lives of my future children (yes make sure you take note that this is far in the future) I don't want to be an overweight mom.. And I really don't want to be an overweight wife.

I also have a more emotional motivation. My mom found out a couple weeks ago she was type 2 diabetic... this runs in my family. I have known this and I also know that it is preventable. I know that I need to change my lifestyle so that I can avoid this issue. My mom has done a huge change in her life and is very inspiring to my journey as well. I would say she is one of my biggest supporters. Thank mom <3

So some short term goals: I want to be less than 200 pounds by Melissa's wedding. Hopefully I can crush that and get to at least 190 but right now I think 200 is a good goal. I will have to check my progress and take note in a couple weeks. I want to be able to go to the gym at least 5 times a week. My struggle is finding time to do that without missing too much sleep but hey, can't be too picky.

I've been planning out my meals and drinking a crazy amount of water... sometimes with cucumber in it. mmmm so refreshing! Thanks for checking in and showing your support.

Till next time :)