It wasn't anything too exciting to report anyways.. A bit frustrating if anything. I feel like I worked really hard last week.. Taking opportunities to do physical activity even when I didn't have to but for week one I guess it didn't pay off. Saturday night I was struggling a lot. I felt really depressed... Mikal wanted to go out to eat and I can just feel it in my bones that that wasn't an option for me. Not now.. Not yet. I want to maintain what I'm eating by making food at home. None the less it made me depressed and I'm sure bummed him out. I've just been in a funk mood lately. I'm sure its just lack of sleep and over working. I've also been experiencing some anxiety with not being able to go to the gym as much as I would like and when I end up in a situation where I don't have my food pre packed. I know that is something I need to check myself on and step back and breathe!
218.2 !!!??!!!!!!! NO WAY!
Seriously? I didn't even lose a pound. My heart broke a little to be honest. I'm not discouraged. I did awesome yesterday and I am on a roll today with my program, but I couldn't help but get that frustrating feeling. A little sick to my stomach even.
A friend sent me the picture to the right and I thought would share it because it makes me smile. I know what I need to do. I will do it and I will accomplish my goals. I do feel A LOT healthier already and I am ready to take on the world in that sense. Mikal and I went to the river on Saturday and I was able to do a crazy hike back up to the top that I knew even was difficult for him. I love doing activities like that. I love nature, biking, hiking and running. Now I just need my body to be in a space where that is possible! I want to go explore the world in a new way. Hike mountains and cross crazy impossible seas!!!! I will be that some day. The person I am on the inside will not be pushed down and held back by what I am on the outside. I've got this!
I have a dress fitting for the dress I am wearing in my friend's wedding. The fitting is September 1st. I told them I was planning on losing weight so now I need to show them and give the alterations team a run for their money! It's only a couple days before Melissa's wedding as well. So I need to kick it in to high gear! Thank you everyone for the continued support. I have heard so many encouraging words and inspiring stories and thoughts. I am blessed to have so many people in my life pushing my for all the right reasons.
With love.
Love you girl. I love reading this every time you post BTW. Try not to get discouraged, easier said then done. But you are doing amazing! You said it yourself that you are already feeling better so just keep it up girl! Love you so much and I am always here for you <3
ReplyDeletethank you so so much for the support. I love and miss you so much! Hope all I well! I want to see you!!
DeleteHey don't get too upset about numbers. Scales are horrible representations of fitness goals! Terrible! Each calibrates differently (+/- a few lbs) plus water weight and food even causes a natural (+/- 4 to 5 lbs) of variation. That can be a huge natural daily change not even related to exercise. Combined that means a possible +/- 8lbs flex up or down just from daily scale mechancs and natural metabolic process. If you are sticking to the scale I would recommend weighing the morning after yesterdays exercise (after you wake up and use the restroom) and keep that time as a constant. On top of that, muscle weighs like 1.5 times more than fat so you will make gains, get discouraged by the scale and then loose motivation even though you are making huge fitness strides.
ReplyDeleteOne of the best words of advice that was given to me is to toss the scale and spend 5-10 minutes in front of a mirror every day and/or night and get to know every inch of your body. Take good mental notes on your current state and then visualize each area and the progress you want to make. When you get enough practice focusing on your musculature in front of the mirror you will be able to actually recognize a single day of progress and THAT is far more accurate, rewarding, and motivating than the discouraging roller coaster scale method. In addition to that, ask me to show you my resistance bands! 75lbs of resistance in a 3lb shoebox size bag. Extremely portable. I work out while I'm supervising! Just one way I sneak in some extra fitness. $50 at big 5!
Thanks Adam!! Lots of great tips! Thanks for being so honest about everything as well and not sugar coating anything. You tell it how it is and I appreciate that. I've only been weighing myself Sunday mornings. No mid week peeks or anything like that. I got a new scale that I will only use and take note of. I also know that I need to take measurements! I haven't done that yet. So yes, thank you for all the good tips!! Keep them coming!!!
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